I entitled this blog "Beautiful Collision" because of how powerful and lovely the image of infinite, holy, perfect God, literally colliding into finite, dirty, imperfect human. To me that's breathtaking. I continue to struggle with the reality of this, all of the implications, the full truth of it. I'm fully conscious of my dirtiness, and God's holiness, but the whole Him diving from Heaven to collide into me is still hard for me to grasp.
I never really had a settled point of this blog. This has made it difficult for me to find what to write about. I had a loose idea of keeping it in touch with that collision. How is God working in my life. How is He colliding with me. I'm a pretty shy guy, so I don't very often like to delve into the real deep stuff. But perhaps I should. In order for this to be a real representation of His colliding into my dirtiness and making me holy, I gotta talk about the dirt.
Let's start off small.
This has been one of the bigger issues God has been dealing with me. I am a man-fearer. This is part of the reason I don't know my neighbors. This is part of the reason I don't like to let people know I'm a Christian. Or a pastor's kid. Or my history. Or if I like/dislike something they dislike/like. I want people to like me.
This is also why I don't talk much, or give my opinion (or perhaps even have one) much. Unless I'm very comfortable with someone.
I've been convicted of this, and I've been trying to rest in the fact that my standing is with God, and not with man. "What can man do to me?" I continue to try and have this focus, and I've had small "victories." More often than not I just keep my mouth shut, or worry that someone isn't liking me. But every once in a while I get the courage to speak to a stranger, or be myself a little more.
Silly...perhaps. But to me it's a very real thing, that God's holiness is burning out of me.
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